I remember completing a three month health and fitness program and the next day boarding a plane to Mexico. I remember doing my last one hour workout of the program and crying on the floor of my laundry room which was also my small workout space. I had done it. I had eaten everything they told me to, worked out each day with very little rest and repair for my body. Now I was FREE! I was 25 pounds lighter and I was ready for my health and fitness earned trip to Mexico.

I believe that when we are brought into a lifetime, we choose what we want to work on. We choose the hard parts, the good parts and the part we play in our lifetime. This has been decided before we arrive into this lifetime so we have no idea on a conscious level. Have you ever said why does this keep happening to me? Why do the same type of relationships keep coming into my life? Why do I also get friends who use me? BECAUSE you need to break the pattern in order to be able to move on and awareness is the key.

Swearing was something we weren’t allowed to do in my house growing up but something as I got older I used to express myself. I hope you enjoy the meditation with swearing as much as I did creating it.

I am able to use my gifts in my practice as an emotional eating life coach. An example is I help my clients journey to their inner child. They tell me a memory in a few details, I am able to journey with them and see everything they see and watch them heal their childhood self and provide them with a safe person who is guiding them. We then do a technique called Emotional Freedom Technique or EFT to help move the emotions through the body. We go through a few rounds where I am having them repeat what I am saying to help move the emotions and I often will just have words coming out of my mouth that are being channeled through me. My clients often say how much it resonates with them and how it really got to the core of their issue.

So if we continuously are told what not to eat and have to follow strict guidelines… what do you think our brain is going to do? It cannot process the negative so we will only be thinking of the foods and eventually self sabotage because we cannot get those foods out of our head. It’s not you… diets just don’t work.

The diet industry has us labeling food as good or bad but what if we brought it back to neutral. When we do this and eat the "bad" food, we associate it with "I am bad". It becomes a part of our belief system and creates shame in the body. What if we mindfully ate what our body needed and created safety instead of shame?

I truly believe that when you stop restricting and actually learn WHY you self sabotage and where your emotional eating comes from you start to create a safe environment for your body to reside in. When we are on a diet and restricting we are in a constant state of deprivation, maybe it’s in food or in our mind but our needs are usually not being met. Once your body knows it’s safe, the weight will fall off.